Amber Waves: We Walk in Spirit, as One, and so, We Never Walk Alone
Tuning my channel to the late Jimmy Borges, as he helps me let my son go.
we are amber waves blowing with the wind dancing to an invisible musical chord, tuned to one, vibrating pitch. every so often, I reach the tallest heights to look around these fields of gold and dare to dream I am the farthest ship at sea. I am here. I am beautiful, vibrant, and so very different from you all when I know deep down, I am one of a million.
A bunch of names from the post-WWII, exotica heyday, in the framework of an upcoming musicians’ union, “Member Spotlight” interview:
“The music’s kind of an early World Music hybrid, a blend of cultures and influences that existed in post-war Hawaii. Though it had many influences and contributors, exotica’s live, chamber sound was really borne by Honolulu’s working musicians — Martin Denny, Arthur Lyman, Harold Chang, Augie Colon, John Kramer, Gene Rains, Alfred Apaka, Ethel Azama, Paul Conrad, and many others. Hollywood composers Les Baxter, Robert Drasnin, and Juan Garcia Esquivel were among those who were instrumental in getting the sound to a larger audience.”
—Randy Wong, Waitiki
Halfway through proofreading bassist Randy Wong’s response, I felt (not heard) the late Jimmy Borges show me (not tell me) in a flash all the first-person, firsthand reasons to “let him go.”
Meaning, my 19-year-old son James, as he makes plans to move back to the only home he’s ever known, to make a life for himself, with his friends. True friends…that I’m forever lecturing are hard to come by.
Well, he came by them, the hard way, and I’ll be damned if I let my ego get in the way of his happiness.
I’ll swallow my hurt and pride, and do what I’ve always done when I learn the hard way (I only have to learn once, my mama says): Be his mother-fucking advocate.
Walk the walk. Put my money where my mouth is.
Jimmy says I’ve known all along. He just reminded me.
“You’re a good mom. You will always do what’s right, even at your own expense. Let him go, Carol.”
I love you, Jimmy. I miss you.
Originally published at https://carolbankswebercoggie.wordpress.com on April 19, 2021.